Life is a tangle of
twisting paths.
Some short.
Some long.
There are dead ends.
And there are choices.
And wrong turns,
and detours,
and yield signs,
and instruction booklets,
and star maps,
and happiness,
and loneliness.
And friends.
And sisters.
And love.
And poetry.

Life is a maze.
You are a maze.
Amazed.
And amazing.

There is something deep inside of me that screams out for you,
Your name,
Your Trust,
Your Touch,
Your Kiss,
Every moment we spent,
I don't want to live another day without you,
I don't want to sleep,
I don't want to dream about you,
I hate it how it makes me feel,
I miss waking next to you,
Waking next to you made me felt safe,
Deep inside of me,
Made me want to kiss you again,
You took away my pain,
My sadness,
I hate it when I think about you,
The time we spent together,
Was never forgotten,
Deep inside of me is dying,
I can't believe it hurts this much,
Why can't I let you go,
Deep inside of me is fading,
Waiting for you,
Slowly I am losing you by every mintue,
Never knew it will hurt me this much,
Sadly we fade away.

I dont know What I want or need.

I've dreamed about a man who possessed...
A mind that when unleashed brought a whole new
world to me.
Eyes that possessed every thought, emotion,
aspiration, and past experiences.
A smile that could scare away those negative
thoughts & happenings to brighten up my day.
Ears that would listen to my problems and every
thoughts, without drowning me out.
A nose to smell things when I cannot because of
being stuffy.
Lips that when pressed against my own would send a
warm sensation to my heart.
A mouth that would speak, what was on his mind
and heart so it would unleash into the world.
Shoulders to cry on when things got to that point.
Strong arms that could embrace me so tight to
comfort me, show love and shield me from harm.
Hands to hold tightly to have a reminder that he is
there.

I've dreamed he had...
An unbound curiosity, always searching for
knowledge allowing his mind to expand to new
horizons.
A trust that could never be broken or doubted.
Support for my aspirations and I would lend mine.
A respect for my hopes, dreams, feelings and
decisions as his own.
An understanding of who I am and who I hope to be.
A dream to go far in this world and knowledge to
where he wants to be.
A personality that attracts and captures people's
attention no matter where he goes.
Wisdom to know what's right and what's wrong and
when each is appropriate.
A sense of humor that has people rolling on the floor
laughing.
A creative intellect to produce ideas never thought
before and to improve on others.
Romance to show he really cares.
A heart that is open for new experiences and views,
as well as for the emotions to come.
Kindness to all people, to not be selfish and to give
more than he receives.
A love not only for those close to him but for others
as well and most of all himself.

I've dreamed all this and more in a man.
People may say it's too much to dream for, therefore it
would always be a dream.
They're wrong, it's not a dream to me, at least not
anymore.
I've found all these qualities in you and so much more,
you're more than I could have ever dreamed of
finding or being with.
I love you for everything that makes you who you are
today.

Red Rape

If rape was a color it would be red
the definition of rape an red
aren’t the same, doesn’t matter to me
I told you to stop
I told you no
It doesn’t matter what I say
nothing is the same
even thought I didn’t know anything
I knew it wasn’t right
you can’t hold me down no more
no matter what you say
I know my rights from wrongs
times have changed
I’m no kid no more
No more blood
but still so much tears
I’ll never do what you did to me
just wait an see
the damage has been done
who said abuse breeds abuse
I’ll break the chain
I could never hurt a soul
if red was a color I’d be rape

Kevin Drummond!

As many people think kevin is my "boyfriend" Um yeah he isnt..he gets kind of aggy When I say that.But Its True.idk whats not letting me be with him..he is Fucking Great!!..like the bestt..we dont fuss && fight..we just laugh,smoke,&& crack jokess,cuddle,make food (I tried teaching him how to cook lol didnt workk] all dayy longg..When we speak it's non stopp..like wow..really like Lovers&& Friends..I confine in him for alot of things.We know so much about each other.. Just the fact I dont want want a Bf yet..Im enjoying my time Being Single, cause I know we start dating I doubt they'll be any break-ups..&& maybe a long relationship I need to get mentally ready for all that..He makes me feel like the BEST girl ever on earth!. I know I will fall for him no doubt about that..I wanna feel REAL LOVE..I spend like Everyday with that kidd..&& all my nights..he calls me Mrs.Drummond..Spent my thanksgiving with him && my first Christmas I'll be spending with a guy.<3

You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.
— JoAnne Golden

I LOOVEEEE make-uppp

these really caught my eye..I hope to be doing this type of art in the future!

If I could Be There Now

I lay outside looking at the dots of ember and lights in the dark velvet sky.
The air is crisp and the wind is soft.
The moon is big and round, and the dim light glows over my head,
onto a path which I have stumbled and fall.
We are alone, but we seek for our other half.
Our heart is weak, tainted and sore,
but together with our other our hearts are strong and become invisible.
We shall walk the path together and we shall not fall.
So let the velvet sky with the embers of light and the moon be cover by the clouds,
and let the wind blow hard and make it hard for us to breath.
For that we are together, one and all

My Fight With Me

I’ve reached my breaking point
I can’t stop
Can’t fall lower - so far
From the top
Can’t do this on my own
Will you please…

Stop my fist before it
Hits the wall
Catch my tears before they
Even fall
Be there and stand by me
Through it all
Maybe then I’d stop my
Fight with me

All these feelings inside
Confusion
Nothing comes out right when
I explain
I’m gonna give it up
Help me please…

Stop my fist before it
Hits the wall
Catch my tears before they
Even fall
Be there and stand by me
Through it all
Maybe then I’d stop my
Fight with me

Today I want to die
End it all
Would you please, could you please,
Please, please, please…

Stop my fist before it
Hits the wall
Catch my tears before they
Even fall
Be there and stand by me
Through it all
Maybe then I’d stop my
Fight with me.

I Wish

Your lips meet mine
Your hand brushes my shoulder
Slipping down to my back
A shudder runs through my body
I press against you, my hands finding your shirt-tail
I tug it off, tracing the muscles with my fingertips
You moan, the kiss becomes deeper - passionate
You break the kiss, moving to my neck
Sucking gently, slowly working down
Your lips meet my chest, a rush of air
Its my turn to moan, pushing closer to you
We kiss wildly, passionately
I love you, want you, need you and you - me
. . . I wish

Kid Cudi x A Bathing Ape Part 2

I never got the firstt cudi bape tee..you know why??...shit was soldd outt!! but this one im deff gettinn fuck that..even iff i have to wait on line for hoursss!!!

Its been a while!

I havent updated in a minute. Everything's been great with me..No Drama meeting new people!!. i have nothing to sayy really but yesterday i ran across a quote "If ex's cant remain friends, either there still in love or never was" this sayy soo much too mee..

686 x New Balance “Super Nova” MT580

A partnership that has developed into a series of full fledged releases continues with the “Super Nova” Collection by New Balance and prominent snowboarding brand 686. Aside from the jacket, fitted, and snowboarding boots made for the lineup, 686 produced 20 pairs of these Super Nova kicks, featuring an orange leather upper with nylon panels and royal blue speckled highlights. As of now it seems like these won’t be seeing an official release.

My Past && I cant look back

okay i dont really like talking about my whole phase i went threw people would say "emo" umm idkk about that cause i was just depressed && really didnt know what my purpose was && also alot of things were goin on with me =[..I use to be a "Cutter" my left arm is cut upp soo is my left leggg and a lil on my stomachh..i really do wanna pic upp butt i cant find themm..umm i use to have like a lil case that i still have ( contains band-aids, a sock that I wiped my blood up with..its looks horrible, multiple razors, and also a lil book i wrote why i cut that day]. && i wore a black band over my hand EVERYDAYYYYY!!!..the wounds were bad =[.

December ,9, 2009

im doing this on actually on the 10th because I was occupied <3. But every time the 9th come around i usually fall back into my whole ohh " i want you back" phase BLAHHHH!! wasnt like that yesterday I was actually happy && with kevin ( ahh that dude really have a hold on me]. Im not gonna lie I wanted to txt that kid but i didnt. Its like obviously he doesnt care soo blahh wateva Im WAYYY TOTALLY OVERR IITTT. on the other hadd me and kevin were together && ended up watching "the lake house" Great love movie.. makes me feel "Love is a powerful thing" I feel asleep in his arms then went home around 12..we live right up the block from eachother.

Flaws && All.

I am

I love music but certain song's gives me strength and pull me threw things such as this.. Mary J Blige - I AM

This song explains alot. i love it so much

This songs is like the soundtrack to everything I LOVE IT SOO MUCHH

GIIIAAAAAA!!

i love herr..sweetest person everrr <3..our friendship will lastt && we stay smoking lol ayee!

Let's Just Say Re-Captured!

Lets just say Im kinda moved on && maybe over my Ex ( but then I could be lying to myself "/ ]. He wants me to forget him so thats what I'm Trying to do.. Now I'm Realizing maybe If I pay attention to someone else it would make it easier for me..umm idk..But his name is Kevin..meet him in the summer.he's SUPER cool.Educated && soo laid back ( a breath of fresh air]..meet his mom.sister.&& dad..they all love me yay =]..It's complicated between us because its like I cant let go && he want me to soo badd..my mind body && spirit need to be with him. but it isnt maybe only my body..I really care about him && he makes me feel more than the person I am..( && i love it thats what I need]. Lets just say im Re-Captured!! I love the feeling i get when he's around never a dull moment he makes me feel like a lil kid but yet grown..ahhh this is looking gooddd!!! <3

&& i came to my conclusion

I knew someday it would have to end
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you friend
It's killing me that now that day has come
If it's for the best then where is this pain from
I know deep inside that this is what I had to do
but it's breaking my heart to walk away from you
I'm trying my best to appear strong
but it's hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong
I still love you with all my heart
that's not going to change even though we're apart
You were my first love and my first kiss

There are so many of our special times I'm going to miss
All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true
But for now from a distance is where I'll be loving you
I think you need me as a friend to help you through
because there are things I can't control that are hurting you
We both have issues no one knows of
neither of us had the strength to be true to our love
Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be
but for now please don't stop loving me
Even though I'm not your girlfriend I'll still be here
With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye
But our story of won't be over until the day that we die
Until We Meet Again

At the moment =[

people this is a VERY MEANINGFUL..HEART TO HEART post..NO LIES would be told.holding NOTHING back..actually Im in tears at this point Writing this. ( I'm a VERY emotional person.I might be Tough but I'm a softy Inside]..I really do MISS someone soooo muchhh..i know its hard for me to show it but I really do..I know I show my IDGAF attitude when I really doo..&& I really care about this dude.( I really do ]. IF only there was something else there..IF only He saw something else there. IF ONLY!!.for like the past couple of days maybe even the past week I had an urge for what reason IDK..shit just came back out of nowhere 0_o.I dont want to get too in depth. I dont wanna feel more worse than i already do "/.i'll just leave it at that.

"So she’s the girl with her middle finger in the air; because for the first time; she just doesn’t care. Tough times do not last, but tough people do. Fuck your past - don’t let it fuck you. No room for sadness or regrets, the past is gone."

a sad state of mind.

i always think there's still hope for some odd reason..I need to cut that shit out because It will NEVER be an US again..i just think hay maybe where just exploring options.but I guess not "/..heyyy oh welll..

Supra Skytop II “Goldie”

To join the inaugural colorway of the Supra Skytop II, Supra quietly rolled out this Gold/Black colorway of the infamous game-changing high-top. The shoe includes a metallic leather upper, patent highlights in black and a big tongue marked by cut-outs. The 413 Factory exclusive is currently sold-out and no word if it’ll make a retail return.

mayybeeee?

maybe we sometimes dislike eachother because we still care && have some type of love for eachother..&& seeing certain things gets us mad.that we only said to eachother."/

I try && its like whatever Tamika

so its like an unknown tension..for what?
What we hate eachother for what?
we both hurt eachother in ways we shouldn't have but we did..like get over it && get pass it..I dont see why you had to hate me.for things you thought i said..so now its like this unknown feeling I'm having.I WIll get past it no matter what..I know for a fact I'm A great person && you didnt meet this tamika (the one everyone first meet]..but I'm off that now..Its life you cant always please people.you cant have everyone as a friend..so i wont try..if having you as a friend is important to me but you feel otherwise then heyy soo be itt..on to something else..Im thinking about maing a change.meaning cutting my hair && putting some redd in my hairr.like whateva..I will always looks my best..

wtf is wrong with me?..random post

Sundayyy ahhhhh..always an emotional day for me..idk shit kills me though..kev came to my gma house just to eat lol..ohh well..I took a nap.had a dream that just blew mines..basically it made me think about my past && made me feel bad like i cause tension && shit.soo when i woke upp i told the dude to leave..um idkk why "/..its a bad move i guess..i cant && wont push him away..he's to much of a good guy..maybe i need to let go of someone && leave it as it is."/.i mean if we dont know how to be eachother friends then why try?.

Find Yourself!!!!

I think people just can't think for themselves anymore. They watch people they idolize on tv and maybe think to themselves if im just like that person maybe people will like me more. Honestly I can't exactly pin-point a reason why people change the person they are to be someone else. This brings me to my favorite quote...

I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not. -Kurt Cobain

Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.-Kurt Cobain

The worst crime is faking it. -Kurt Cobain

If people just realized that the person they are is uniqe than maybe someone will step back and think that they are different but it is nothing back and they can go on being their true self.

NEVERR!! will i ever LOVE again.

And you ask me what is love to me?
people usally say it's cuddleing and kissing
and loving n caring
what about the pain the hurt
the yelling and screaming
The late night phone calls with i miss u'z
ya sure there is good n bad to love
but what happens when u never get to say good bye
what happens when u love some one so much and u never get the chance to tell them how u feel
love is more than the late night phone calls
the times u spend at the mall
it's more than holding hands
it's what is in your heart
it's how u truely honestly feel
love is when the world stops spinning and the sky is no longer blue
the clouds are never gray and it never rains
love is scarey but it's also a wonderful thing
I just wish i wasn't so afraid of love.

Its Just emotions taking me over.

Emotions - Destinys Child


Ugh back in this state of mind..its like when i take a step forward i see or hear something that takes me two steps back . everyone thats knows me Know I cant be somewhere if my heart && mind isnt there..I have to give someone my WHOLE!!. For some odd reason i feel like I owe someone something ( idk why]. Like If i feel if I do something I will hurt Them "/. But life goes on && destiny dont want it. It wont happen..i see it as a love hate thing..shouldn't be like that but it is.No oNe can change that..only the people that cause the tension..yesterday i know ppl peeped my attitude..&& thats because duh I had one..people say things that have NO RELATION to do with a topic..like shuttup &&& stop trying to be heard ( its best to stay quite at times].I really cant someone but honestly I am Developing hate for certain people && do trust there going to hear about it.. on another note.. my poetry book is flowingg like I will need a new one maybe in a few days..I want to post some of my poems but most are like. suicidal, misery, love, friends, relationships im not quite ready to open up that much..im basically hollow now "/..ehh wateva..

Thanksgiving!!!!

So today i had a GREAT DAY..it isnt over yet though lol.Right now Im at my bff house Samantha ( Driking.Smoking]. This morning was Great was with Kevin had thanksgiving breakfast was Great..His mom LOVES me..( i think she loves me more than she loves him lol j/k] She introduced as her " Daughter In-Law" (idk about that yet lol]. other than that had a Great morning..Samantha Family is soo cool.heyy..food was Greatt wooo on deckk..I couldnt let my night get ruined but people negative attitudes..

As Thanksgiving Day approaches,
Our blessings we recall;
The things we are most thankful for,
We recollect them all.

I speak off the top of my head...99.9 % of the time

I sometimes wish people could be in my brain so they can see things how i see them..or even understand my point of view *shrugs* well i guess that cant happen..so i really have to explain myself and sometimes people just DON'T get me. I mean I'm not really hard to read ( even though many people say i am]. To get me is to understand me..well anywayss I've been kind of Depressed ( i dont want to say depressed but kind of down] I really feel like i have bad luck. like WTF!..smh so many things can make me happy im not just trying to put in the effort..I feel its a waste of time.. actually I feel alot of shit is a waste of time.POINTLESS!!. because at the END of the day..most likely nothing happens..i actually found happiness in someone just not ready to start a relationship even though i want && need that comfort..I need to find out what love is && what it can be.

I know we have already split
Gone our separate ways indeed
Hurtful words have been said I admit
But it doesn’t mean love is dead and buried.

We have gone through so much with grit
The love for you my heart can’t be emptied
Why did I agree that we shall quit
When for our future I silently plead.

Now when all alone I sit
My feelings for you grow rather than recede
If only you can find it in your heart to permit
To continue where we left off and make it succeed.

What Doesnt Kill you make you Stronger.

She sits there in the silence,
Yet the noise in her head is so loud,
The anger and frustration she is longing to get out,
She has unanswered questions,
A lot of things she'd like to know,
But someone left her hanging there,
With nowhere else to go,
Limbo is a nasty place,
You have to take control,
And summon all your inner strength,
Don't ever just let go,
You turn the pain into a strength,
Take it everywhere you go,
But use it to your advantage,
So no one ever knows,
How empty that you feel inside,
The darkness in your heart,
The loneliness you long to leave,
Back there so far behind,
Yet you wear a smile on your face,
Never let them see the tears,
But in her eyes you see her dying,
Trying hard to keep afloat,
In the sea of sorrow she is drowning in,
Until a lifeline is thrown,
Her friends all gather round her,
To help her make it through the day,
If only she could turn it round,
She would start another day,
A deep breath in,
A long hard sigh,
She watches the hours flying by,
A friendly smile the squeeze of a hand,
They are all there behind her,
If she should fall,
But she is stronger than she thinks,
The time will make it easier,
To just get through the day,
And sooner than she thinks,
The pain will fade away,
Til she is right back up there,
Head and shoulders above the rest,
Then she will simply stand and shout,
I'm here world I did my best,
I survived the dark and painful days,
And the emptiness i felt,
But what's doesn't kill you makes you stronger,
Now I'm that without a doubt.

love without sex and sex without love

Sex without love is obviously
having sex with someone you dont
love. In fact, you probably have
sex with just about anyone. You
feel as if you have to do it.
You crave sex. Its all you
think about. When you are having
sex, you enjoy it but when you not
doing it, you just want to
rip out all of your hair. Every
where you go, you just gotta have
it. Sex is your life.

Love without sex is having a
relationship without sex. You
love this person to the fullest
but refuse to have sex with
them for some reason.But what
if yall never share yall love
for each other. What couple doesnt
have sex just for fun?
Mystery Question! But why
must we have a love without sex relationship?
Ah yes, another mystery question.

Thoughts

Suicide is on my mind
Blood flows down out of my body
Pain is all that I want to feel
My life is over and nothing is real Self-mutilation is apart of my
My mind is racing my blood
Tonight will be the end of me
To bad my life is already over

Suicidal thoughts are on my mind
My life is going to be left behind
My soul is already home
Where im all alone
Suicidal thoughts

Today all I want is the pain
Today give me sunshine not rain
I cry myself to sleep
I know he doesn't want me
But when I die I won't have to care
He won't be in my dreams or nightmares anymore

All I need is to see your face again
All I need is to hear your voice again
All I want is to hear you say your sorry
I'm tierd of my life someone please hand me the knie

My suicidal thoughts
My heart is in knots my suicidal thoughts

Air Jordan XII (12) Retro Black/Red “Flu Game”

No signature line of sneakers has bore the same level of cultural intersection as the Air Jordan. Bringing together sneaker and sport culture as one, the Air Jordan has often seen itself the benefactor of various nicknames based on some MJ’s most dominant performances. The Air Jordan Retro XII (12) in black and red earns its “Flu Game” moniker thanks to MJ’s inspirational NBA playoff performance in 1997 against the Jazz as he dropped 38 points under less than ideal circumstances battling the flu. The retro carries the same familiar color-blocking that made the shoe such a stand-out of the era alongside some tributes to MJ’s 38 point feat such as the touches on the heel and tongue.

A Bathing Ape Pirate Collection – New Releases

The A Bathing Ape Pirate initiative has started to ramp up as of late with A Bathing Ape looking to hit various different aesthetics and markets. From their URSUS collection to their outlet-style Pirate collection, the brand has looked to capitalize on the pirate theme with its own range seen here. The graphic-dominant collection includes t-shirts and crewnecks and is available through Anytime.

Remember old Tamika??

yeah well as many people know now I'm Really back to my old self ( Smoking, Drinking Alot , Partying Heavy, && Really Not caring]..I liked myself way better when I was like that for the fact I was more of a "Free- Spirit" and hardly cared about anything ( Not saying its a good thing not to care] But I Dont!!..If I consider you my friend please let it stay that way. && if you aren't I advice you to just LEAVEE!!

&& I'm Backkkkk

I Know I deleted my blog before but thats only because a specific reason but anyway Im back..I think I'll delete twitter..Social Networks are really annoying me..My blog site would basically be the only way to connect to me.

emotions;;

So Last Night I went to sleep Great.School wack as usual.still Wasn't communicating with people so that much.(Just need to be by myself].Bitches was running they mouth in school.ugh (So over iT.Get a Life].Went to pick up my results from my Doctor.apparently There is a Scoliosis.(cried a bit].I told my Bf. He deadass told me something I didnt want to hear.Of course I bitched.Off the fact he told me about a chick I dont give two fucks about.ughh.Im angry.So I recently got home.Bored;;.I think Im being ignored.(hey nothing new!].I dont want to get to in deep cause certain people read my blog and I dont want them knowing to much personal things.
CHEWS GUM BLOW BUBBLE *POP*

ViDeo Blog;;My First VLOG!

Photography;;

So Basically I like taking Pictures.Sometimes when i have alot on my mind I'll Just Grab my Camera and be on the GO!.The Meaning of Photography means: The art or process of producing images of objects on photosensitive surfaces.(Which I have No Idea what that means]lol.I just think Photography is a way to express yourself.Or even just seeing something that catches your eye. check out my Flickr Flickr.com/xP0iS0Nx

3 at ONE;;Personal moment

So today started off BAD. My Morning was not good.Cried a Bit. Sucked it Up. && went to school madd.Couldnt Focus Really. So I left. umm alot is going on in my mind Right now!.Dont Know where to start talking.(I'll start with my hair]. So Im officailly a BLACK head.my natural color.i like it.Some People said they like me better with Blond.(Umm Fuck EM!].Im not doing anything to impress you.Now! FRIENDS really the state of mind im in right now is If You cant help me with my problems either it being personal or not.I dont claim you as my "Friend".That word get thrown around so much that it lost its meaning.True friendship is perhaps the only relation that survives the trials and tribulations of time and remains unconditional. A unique blend of affection, loyalty, love, respect, trust and loads of fun is perhaps what describes the true meaning of friendship.Now Im thinking I only have about 5 true friends everyone else.USELESS!.well a 6th friend because now I came close to Jerissa (I swear i'm going to start loving her by nxt wkk lol].She gives good advice and dont really show any negative energy while we speak oppose to the friends i have now.NXT! Im still trying to put my VLOG! up.I think I'll mostly be Vlogging because typing is so much work.And I want you guys to actually see my emotions when I speak oppose to when i'm writing its like BLAH!.Something Crazy happened when I was on my way home.A few people know.So i wont put up what happened. && yeah thats all I have to say for NOW.

*Chews Gum Blow Bubble* POP

Hair Change

I really Have Nothing to say.Just Want To keep you guys updated.So Right now I'm actually changing my hair color. (To Black].I'm Tired of This Blond. Its getting BLAH! now.I basically want my bangs back. Just For Winter.Its A Good Look, & Plus the Hubby want To see me with black Hair. (He meet me with Blond].I made a VLOG! I'm trying to upload it.Seems Difficult.So Basically today was a DRAG!.especially from last night..I didn't really do Anything today, But Hang out with my cousin.& thats about it.So After My Hair is done i'll take a pic

Until He Came along;;

So This Summer was one of the BEST i meet alot of new people that I love now.One in peson in particular i fell Inlove with;; Despite what everyone say "oh you guys just meet" or "its probably just lust" or "are you sure he isnt saying things jus to make you feel a certain way".Everyone need to mind there business.This is how I feel.Even though me and him Go threw so much drama.Its worth it.because at the End of the day i'll still be here.He introduced me to new things, Made me express myself way more than I ever Did.&& I thank Him for that.He makes me Laugh & Smile simply for no reason.He can be rude at times.& Super Nice to anyone he me meet..I meet him in the summer he was talking to some other girl, But I scooped him Up! lolol.=].Then things changed August 9..Even when things get Hectic I still truely care for him.And I love Him dearly.

Then She came to her Sences

Not all scars show, Not all wounds heal, sometimes you cant always see the pain someone feels....but eventually the pain just turns into another lesson learned. People walk in & out of your life, some for a season, some for a lifetime....never hold on to pain..just leave it in your past. Don't let the past create the future, let the future erase the past.Experience is the hardest teacher, it gives you the test first & the lesson later...I believe Everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Sometimes good Things Fall Apart so that Better Things Can Fall Together. Experience is the Hardest (But the best) Teacher, Because it gives You The Test 1st & The Lesson Later. Out Of All The Pain....i was granted knowledge. Everyday That Passes by, my eyes open Wider & Wider. Once you Find Peace with Yourself, You can Bring Purity To Every Part of Your Life. I'm Moving On, its just a chapter in the past now . I'm not closing the book though, im Just Turning the page.

InTro

At the age of 17 i've seen, heard && been throguh alot of shit && its still continuing as we speak but i can handle the roller coaster ride. To me Life is like a pen, you can use white out to cover it up, but you'll always be reminded of the spot where you made a mistake.Life is about living and learning; fear not sinning because if you fear sinning you fear living. Kinda at a confused state of mind right now about life and no one has the answers to them but as the days go by they'll come to me one by one.Now that i've been introduced to blogging it will really help me through life to express my feelings w/o having any worries.So buckle up && enjoy the ride.