Life is a tangle of
twisting paths.
Some short.
Some long.
There are dead ends.
And there are choices.
And wrong turns,
and detours,
and yield signs,
and instruction booklets,
and star maps,
and happiness,
and loneliness.
And friends.
And sisters.
And love.
And poetry.

Life is a maze.
You are a maze.
Amazed.
And amazing.

There is something deep inside of me that screams out for you,
Your name,
Your Trust,
Your Touch,
Your Kiss,
Every moment we spent,
I don't want to live another day without you,
I don't want to sleep,
I don't want to dream about you,
I hate it how it makes me feel,
I miss waking next to you,
Waking next to you made me felt safe,
Deep inside of me,
Made me want to kiss you again,
You took away my pain,
My sadness,
I hate it when I think about you,
The time we spent together,
Was never forgotten,
Deep inside of me is dying,
I can't believe it hurts this much,
Why can't I let you go,
Deep inside of me is fading,
Waiting for you,
Slowly I am losing you by every mintue,
Never knew it will hurt me this much,
Sadly we fade away.

I dont know What I want or need.

I've dreamed about a man who possessed...
A mind that when unleashed brought a whole new
world to me.
Eyes that possessed every thought, emotion,
aspiration, and past experiences.
A smile that could scare away those negative
thoughts & happenings to brighten up my day.
Ears that would listen to my problems and every
thoughts, without drowning me out.
A nose to smell things when I cannot because of
being stuffy.
Lips that when pressed against my own would send a
warm sensation to my heart.
A mouth that would speak, what was on his mind
and heart so it would unleash into the world.
Shoulders to cry on when things got to that point.
Strong arms that could embrace me so tight to
comfort me, show love and shield me from harm.
Hands to hold tightly to have a reminder that he is
there.

I've dreamed he had...
An unbound curiosity, always searching for
knowledge allowing his mind to expand to new
horizons.
A trust that could never be broken or doubted.
Support for my aspirations and I would lend mine.
A respect for my hopes, dreams, feelings and
decisions as his own.
An understanding of who I am and who I hope to be.
A dream to go far in this world and knowledge to
where he wants to be.
A personality that attracts and captures people's
attention no matter where he goes.
Wisdom to know what's right and what's wrong and
when each is appropriate.
A sense of humor that has people rolling on the floor
laughing.
A creative intellect to produce ideas never thought
before and to improve on others.
Romance to show he really cares.
A heart that is open for new experiences and views,
as well as for the emotions to come.
Kindness to all people, to not be selfish and to give
more than he receives.
A love not only for those close to him but for others
as well and most of all himself.

I've dreamed all this and more in a man.
People may say it's too much to dream for, therefore it
would always be a dream.
They're wrong, it's not a dream to me, at least not
anymore.
I've found all these qualities in you and so much more,
you're more than I could have ever dreamed of
finding or being with.
I love you for everything that makes you who you are
today.

Red Rape

If rape was a color it would be red
the definition of rape an red
aren’t the same, doesn’t matter to me
I told you to stop
I told you no
It doesn’t matter what I say
nothing is the same
even thought I didn’t know anything
I knew it wasn’t right
you can’t hold me down no more
no matter what you say
I know my rights from wrongs
times have changed
I’m no kid no more
No more blood
but still so much tears
I’ll never do what you did to me
just wait an see
the damage has been done
who said abuse breeds abuse
I’ll break the chain
I could never hurt a soul
if red was a color I’d be rape

Kevin Drummond!

As many people think kevin is my "boyfriend" Um yeah he isnt..he gets kind of aggy When I say that.But Its True.idk whats not letting me be with him..he is Fucking Great!!..like the bestt..we dont fuss && fight..we just laugh,smoke,&& crack jokess,cuddle,make food (I tried teaching him how to cook lol didnt workk] all dayy longg..When we speak it's non stopp..like wow..really like Lovers&& Friends..I confine in him for alot of things.We know so much about each other.. Just the fact I dont want want a Bf yet..Im enjoying my time Being Single, cause I know we start dating I doubt they'll be any break-ups..&& maybe a long relationship I need to get mentally ready for all that..He makes me feel like the BEST girl ever on earth!. I know I will fall for him no doubt about that..I wanna feel REAL LOVE..I spend like Everyday with that kidd..&& all my nights..he calls me Mrs.Drummond..Spent my thanksgiving with him && my first Christmas I'll be spending with a guy.<3

You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.
— JoAnne Golden